A heart-to-heart 📞
I like to talk for hours—
hosting conversations with other people,
but of course, I am talking to myself.The logic is to beat others to the gut
punch, duct-taping pillows
of imagined resilience to my stomach.Yet if I am so convinced these conversations
will happen—why waste my breath? Time
to conference in a higher power,a grounded spirit, a boundary-setter,
to twirl my finger around the curly
pink phone cord and say: goodbye.
I can’t be the only person who hosts drawn-out conversations with other people in my mind before the conversation even happens. It feels safe to convince ourself of what will happen, to feel like we have some control, but the truth is that other people have more range than we can ever concoct in our minds. It’s okay to press pause on the stories we’re telling ourselves, even if just for a moment.